Too long? Read this anyway(:

Hi everyone!

 

I feel like because of time constraints and all I don't seem to find the time to take photos

Before that I use to always use weekends to do all these..but now that my weekends are practically occupied, I haven't been doing so...really need to start reorganizing my time again lol!

 

I haven't really talked a lot about myself here since the main reason why I started this blog was to share about my thoughts and experience on makeup/skin care products. But recently my friend shared this with me and I thought of sharing it here for anyone reading this who experienced the same thing I did.. (:

 

There was this period of time,which I believe was for about 3-5years that I literally felt like I was socially awkward. I couldn't find the courage to talk to people and even if I did, I didn't know how to continue the conversation. It got quite bad to the extent I would just sit in the lecture theatre alone for the entire lesson for almost every single lesson.

 

It all started when I first got betrayed/backstabbed by my friends. I have to admit I wasn't a very nice person to be begin with so I felt I kinda deserved it then. I was then being threatened and surrounded by gangsters who wanted to bash me up. People started gossiping about me behind my back and gave me weird stares like I was a creep.

 

And there was this group of friends(?), which I thought they would be the last people who will ever gossip or judge or do anything negative to anyone, that I met and that was kinda the only thing that kept me going thinking that actually things ain't as bad as it seems. But one day....yeap they did it too..

 

That was probably the breaking point for me. Ever since then.. All this social awkwardness happened. I just wanna stay at home and do nothing, thats when I discovered the beauty community on YouTube. I practically watch all the videos I can find subscribed and subscribed and slowly got the hang of putting on makeup.

 

After watching videos for months, I really wanted to try making videos too.. But I couldn't find the courage to.. For readers following me from the start, you have already know about my lack of courage for making video that's why I decided to hide behind the screen and started this blog instead..lol!

 

Because of makeup I had really bad breakouts, which made me felt even more inferior about myself.. But also because of the skill of makeup to make myself look better let me regain that tiny bit of confidence.. And I started to slowly talk to people again.. But I'll always have that feeling that I'll feel very out of place when I don't have my friends around with me..

 

That was before my last year in uni that I've decided to take a step out of my comfort zone to start this blog. It is actually something that I did hesitate for quite some time too.. I kept feeling that people will find me weird and awkward, tell me off and leave nasty comments on the blog. I'm not too sure I could handle it or not.. I don't know what but one day I just decided to start blogging.. And it actually wasn't that bad! I rmb when I first receive a comment I was so nervous I didn't know how I should reply . Lol! This is so embarrassing~~ and when I received my first email! I was thrilled!

 

I'm not gonna deny, this blog did made me more sociable and made me more confident to talk to people I don't know, even in real life... But there was this part of me who is very wary of what people thinks and what they say. We can all say I never really let go of that.. Maybe because I don't know how to let them not affect me... I rmb when I first received a nasty comment I was so devastated it actually affected me for quite a while. But them I thought again... That person don't even know me.. And probably will never even meet me in real life. Why should I be affected by him/her? So slowly I let it go.. Day by day throughout this year plus I manage to step out of my comfort zone bit by bit.

 

I was chatting with this friend of mine about this matter just over the weekend. And I admit, I just can't ignore what others say and think about me. All the negative stuff.. It still makes me wanna go back into that comfort zone of mine every now and then... And she shared this poem with me

 

Mother Theresa's Anyway Poem

 

 

I felt so touched and inspired by this poem. The logic is so simple yet the older we grow the more we complicate ourselves the more we care too much about what others think about us.

So to those people who are experiencing whet i've experienced, take this poem! Understand it. And you'll realise you've wasted your tears and feelings on stuff that doesn't matter at all!

 

Alright now this is getting awkward... I don't know how to end this... Lol!

 

Anyway... Thanks for reading!

 

Xx, meiyi

 

I'll be back!

Herrow Everyone!!

 

It's been a while since I've blogged! Many important decisions have been made and many things have changed! So I'm still trying to adapt it..

I'm blogging from my new iPad now! So if this works, I'll be blogging from my iPad most oft the time from now!!(: feeling really excited about this...lol!

 

Alright I'll stop here for now,

Thankyou so much for supporting my blog all these while during my absence!!(: I really appreciate it!(:

 

Xx, Meiyi

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Secret Project Revealed ; HERMAZE

Hi Everyone!!~

I have been complaining/ranting for the past few months that I’ve been really busy with work and many other stuff.. I can’t really remember what I’ve been ranting too. LOL!!~ It’s just too much.. Too overwhelming..

Most of you following here long enough would have know that I’ve FINALLY graduated from school!~ Which I thought was the most exciting part of the year, since I’ve been yearning for that for a really really long time..

And when I wondered, what more good can I get out of this year?? And this came..

Hair Transformation

Hi Everyone!~

It’s been a while!!
Yes a long while!!

I’ve been a little busy the past 2 months.. Managed to squeeze a little time out today to post this!
Because I have something I really wanna share!!~

If you follow me on instagram, you would have known what happen..

YES! I cut my hair!!~

If you follow me on instagram, you would have also guessed that I went to Korea!~ LOL!!~ But that’s not the point of this post. I’ll see how to goes and maybe post it in an another post.~~

&no i didn’t cut my hair in korea. I really wanted to! But I just didn’t have the courage to let someone whom I couldnt really communicate with give me a new look. LOL!! So i waited till I came home to do it!~

Etude House Shini Star Clear BB Lotion

Hi Everyone!~

I was wondering…hmmm.. did I just blog about Etude House yesterday??
Went to check..and yeap.. I did… LOL!!~

Click here is you missed it!~

And yes!!~~ I’m back with another review!!~
From Etude House (again) LOL!!~ You are gonna expect more Etude House products coming up!~ Have been trying out Etude House more these days..mainly because it’s cheap!~ LOL!~ And also I heard their quality is improving.. So I thought of giving it a go~LOL!~

Remember many many months ago I did wrote a post about my a little crazy shopping moment with BB creams? Yea… (click here to view)

Today~ I’m finally gonna start reviewing them!!~ PS. I’ve tried all of the BB cream.. Just that I didn’t have the time to write a review then.. So gear up for more BB cream reviews!~ before I move on to CC creams.. LOL!!~

Etude House Proof 10 Liquid Liner

Hi Everyone!!~

I’m finally back with a review~

For those who saw my review basket on instagram, you would have knew that I have a ton of products lining up to review, but I honestly don’t have the time to do so..

This week seems to be a more less taxing week, I shall try my best to blog more often. 화이팅!!

Let’s move on with today’s post before I start rambling and rambling non-stop!~

As seen on the title, This post is on..

VM Randomness #1